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hooray.

Last night I was sitting on the floor of the living room nursing a sick husband on the couch back to health, playing tug of war with Berkeley and bouncing and making silly faces at a bored baby all while trying to just have a quiet evening watching a movie.  In the midst of all the chaos, I looked at Devin and asked, “What did we used to do in the evenings before we had Sadie?”

He couldn’t really remember, and neither could I.

She has only been part of our lives for just over 5 months, and yet life without her is unimaginable.  I started to really think about her and what she has done to my life.  While I was sitting there pondering what could we possibly have done without her I just realized… what is the point?  What is the point of me or me and Devin, without Sadie?  She is everything.  She makes everything make sense, makes everything fall into place, she makes everything in this world more enjoyable.  She is everything, and without her there is nothing.

Being a mom is the most important part I will ever play.  I have this perfect little being in my care that I will take and help shape into the best human being I could possibly make.  I will teach her, guide her, show her and love her.  I will do my absolute best and take every single moment of this job with great respect.

The other day I was out to the mall with my brother Jared and sister Jamie, and I was watching all of the other moms out there in the grass taking care of their children.  Most had toddlers, some had babies, quiet a few were pregnant or had a combination of all of the above.  I sat and watched as I nursed Sadie and thought to myself, “Hooray for all of these mothers.”  All of these mothers who love their children and take them out to play and learn, all of the mothers who eat healthy and stay strong anticipating the birth of their little ones.  Hooray for mothers.  They are the ones responsible for what our future world will be like.  Like me, they have a very important job and hooray for all of them – past, present and expecting!

 

 

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Park & Pool

I never really appreciated my hometown while I was growing up there.  Maybe it’s because I moved out of there faster than you can say “eighteenth birthday.”  I was too busy wanting to go out and meet new people and soak up the city life to notice how beautiful and easy life is there.  This trip was a great reminder of what kind of charm a small town can bring.

Mom and I picked up my Uncle Leigh, who lives very close to my parents and we spent an afternoon strolling through Grape Park -  called Grape Park for obvious reasons, as you’ll see below.

I can’t wait for it to really start warming up, but in the meantime we are getting some days that are swim-able.

Poor Berkeley loves the water more than anything in the universe, but she can’t swim.  Lucky for us, she looks even cuter in her neon yellow life vest plus she can jump in and we don’t have to dive in after her.

The sweet combination of sun and water sent this little baby into snooze town.  I stripped her down into her birthday suit and placed her on my lap and she drifted off.  I sat and relaxed – soaking up the warmth joined by a perfect breeze blowing in from the coast.  I looked around and enjoyed the truly majestic view that I never really noticed nor cared about when I was a kid.

That night I laid down to sleep in my old childhood bedroom and stared at the stick-on glow in the dark stars I stuck all over the ceiling making a perfect replica of space when I was 10.  My baby slept deeply, she snuggled into my chest synchronizing her breath with mine and I thought to myself… this is crazy.  Here I am a grown woman sleeping in the bedroom I used to have slumber parties in once upon a time -  and now my baby daughter is asleep with me in this very room.  So often I feel like I’m still a kid, despite my growing population of gray hairs.  I just don’t know how I got here.  It’s as if I blinked and now I’m a wife and mother. Then I look at my sleeping baby and think, I am so happy.


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